May 31, 2013

Yikes, another month over...and almost half a year gone. That's a weird feeling.....I'm still doing really well with my new eating program and am feeling so much more self confident and at peace with myself.....just a lot less anxiety and incidents of self loathing....it feels so good to just be on the right track and to feel like I'm moving forward instead of just being stuck in a rut. I'm not feeling deprived or like I've given up anything....

It's weird to have no cravings and to not be tempted by junk... Vons has their to-die-for tiramisu bar cake on their ad for $5 Friday.....creamy, light, sweet and yummy....in the past, I've gotten that on many, many occasions....and it has never lasted more than 2-3 days, I'd eat the whole thing in a couple of days. Now the thought of that just isn't even in my brain....I was definitely out of control with eating too much of food that isn't healthy....for me, it seems easier to "just say no" to sugar....I'm looking at it as something that is an addictive food for me so I just need to eliminate it, much as an alcoholic has to eliminate alcohol. I remember reading a book about a million years ago "Sugar Blues" which put forth the theory that sugar is an addictive substance. And, of course, Overeaters Anonymous believes that sugar and white flour are addictive substances that an obese person must abstain from...I'm not sure I believe that but for me, for now, I want to just have NO SUGAR and see how I do....

So far, so good....a new month starting....love the feeling of a blank calendar and new opportunities ahead...