May 24, 2013

I had errands to run today and was thinking of going out to eat.....maybe Hometown Buffet?? Lots of protein and salad there...and.....vanilla ice cream....well, a little vanilla ice cream after a whole week of being "good" couldn't hurt, right????   I could just see the machine and the ice cream filling the little dish...and how creamy it would taste......then POW, hit the "RESET" button...decided not to tempt myself......and am happy for that.

While running around, I stopped at Del Taco and got two of their $1 double meat tacos, dumped them onto a dish and threw the shells away....paid 43 cents for a tiny little side cup of ranch dressing and so I had my do-it-yourself taco salad.....also got a cup of their beans and cheese...they make their beans from scratch using real dried pinto beans every day so they are yummy and filling....a perfectly good Phase One lunch for $3.....They have their big tostada salad for only $4 and they can make it without the fried flour tortilla shell so that's a good thing for when I want a bigger meal..today wasn't super hungry....

I wonder if I"ll ever stop wanting to use food for emotional reasons...probably not....once that pattern is so deeply ingrained it's hard to stop. But I can learn to be aware and make better choices....so it's kind of fun trying to figure out how to make Phase One work....and not feel deprived....

It's Memorial Day weekend starting today....I have no plans....so will continue to move forward making good choices. ....it's pretty easy for now but I know that will change as time passes and maybe boredon/depression/anxiety set it. That's why I am keeping this blog, writing while I'm feeling hopeful and upbeat leaves a record for myself to go back and read when times get tough. I've been keeping a food log also so that I can go back and recreate the meals that gave me such success this first week...at Costco today, they were sampling their sheet cakes and that spoonful of sugar and flour didn't even look tempting!!!