So no change this week but that's actually GOOD news considering I didn't even attempt to try this week!!! Don't get me wrong, I didn't go hog wild and pig out....just didn't make choices with losing weight in mind. Last weekend was the big Ontario CA. Scrapbook Expo at the Ontario Convention Center....and I totally over did....walked too much and wiped out all my physical reserves.....to the point that I slept for 18 hours on Saturday night....I went to bed at 11 pm and woke up once to go to the bathroom and didn't wake up til 7:30 pm Sunday. Yikes. I was shocked when I woke up and it was dark. And sadly, I felt like I could have slept longer...
So thanks to sleeping so late I stayed up from 7:30 pm Sunday til 5:30 pm Monday....then, gratefully slept well til about 9 am today...now hopefully I have recharged my battery a bit. Obviously, there are major issues going on. I've had this problem with my legs being weak for years. My doctor feels it's from my chronically low Vit D and iron levels. They have been low for over 2 years.despite treatment...I think I might have a pinched nerve in my low back. I know I had herniated discs there when I had an MRI over 10 years ago....so I need to step up my medical intervention...it seems that I just have a limited amount of physical energy and once spent, there's no more...and if I push through it like I did at Expo, I will pay the price. My legs are still tired today but at least I don't feel as wiped out....
I definitely haven't had any energy to cook or prep food....but that is getting better and hopefully I'm back on track. At least I'm starting again at the same place I was 6 weeks ago....and not with a big gain....
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Monday, October 7, 2013
October 7, 2013 Monday weigh in...287 lbs total lost 29.5 lbs...week 20
I'm finally back...I've had a really rough couple of weeks since getting back from vacation. It was probably the best trip to Oregon in all of the years I've been going ...I just really enjoyed every minute with family. I also had so much fun scrapbooking and just relaxing...anyway, when I got home I started having problems....I've struggled with clinical depression my entire adult life....for me, it is an insidious thing that creeps up and paralyzes me. I don't "feel" depressed or sad or teary....just bit by bit I will stop functioning...It creeps up on me a bit at a time and it'll take me a few days to figure out what's going on....last week I was all messed up...I started staying up all night...literally going to bed at 6 am and sleeping til 4 pm...
I didn't even leave the house except to get mail and take out trash for a solid week...and then, I forced myself to get in the car and only went to Subway to buy lunch and bring it right back home. That was a week ago and I'm now turning it around. It's hard and I get tired of having to talk myself into just doing the basic things I need to do every day....it would be great to just be able to live my life without having to have a long mental conversation with myself just to function...but, it's what I have to do and eventually I get it together and start feeling better....
For the past couple of weeks I've been having trouble functioning and that included not eating right. But, fortunately, I didn't do much damage on the scale despite not eating right. I'm thankful that I haven't gained anything since getting home from Oregon...just have stayed the same pretty much within a pound or two so I'm in a good place to just start over again...Things are much better this week and I'm functioning better...sleeping a more normal schedule and getting out and doing the things I enjoy. I took a card making class and went to a workshop day at Michaels....and this week is Expo which I'm looking forward to. Each day I'm feeling a bit better so I'm sure I'll keep improving every day.
There are about 7 weeks til my birthday so I won't be making my goal of weighing 260 by then...if I work at it, I could probably do that before Christmas so that's my new goal...upward and onward!!
I didn't even leave the house except to get mail and take out trash for a solid week...and then, I forced myself to get in the car and only went to Subway to buy lunch and bring it right back home. That was a week ago and I'm now turning it around. It's hard and I get tired of having to talk myself into just doing the basic things I need to do every day....it would be great to just be able to live my life without having to have a long mental conversation with myself just to function...but, it's what I have to do and eventually I get it together and start feeling better....
For the past couple of weeks I've been having trouble functioning and that included not eating right. But, fortunately, I didn't do much damage on the scale despite not eating right. I'm thankful that I haven't gained anything since getting home from Oregon...just have stayed the same pretty much within a pound or two so I'm in a good place to just start over again...Things are much better this week and I'm functioning better...sleeping a more normal schedule and getting out and doing the things I enjoy. I took a card making class and went to a workshop day at Michaels....and this week is Expo which I'm looking forward to. Each day I'm feeling a bit better so I'm sure I'll keep improving every day.
There are about 7 weeks til my birthday so I won't be making my goal of weighing 260 by then...if I work at it, I could probably do that before Christmas so that's my new goal...upward and onward!!
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